Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Love you Forever

The boys and I have a favorite book called Love You Forever by Robert Munsch. The theme of the story is a mother that watches her sweet little boy grow up, and always sings the song 'I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always. As long as I'm living, my baby you'll be.' It's become our little thing to always tell each 'I love you forever!' Yesterday I was walking with Daniel, and I was carrying him. I told him that I loved him forever, he replied with, 'No, I love YOU forever!'. It then really hit him what that really could mean.
Forever is forever. Never ending. All eternity. The only way to live for all eternity is to accept and know Jesus Christ as your savior. This overwhelming feeling came over me to think of these implications. I know that Craig and I have accepted Christ, and that we will indeed get to live in heaven for all eternity, and now we have this absolutely responsibility to raise our children in Christ and in a Godly fashion. So when I tell my babies that I love them forever, I truly will in fact get to love them forever. And they are not my babies as long as I'm living, but in fact my babies forever.
I was overwhelmed with feelings of happiness of knowing that I get forever with my husband and children, but also burdened thinking about those that don't have this certainty. I couldn't imagine living my life not knowing what would happen when we passed from this life or not knowing what would happen to my children. This is a matter of life and death.
Hebrews 9:26-28 says If that had been necessary, Christ would have had to die again and again, ever since the world began. But now, once for all time, he has appeared at the end of the age to remove sin by his own death as a sacrifice. And just as each person is destined to die once and after that comes judgment, so also Christ died once for all time as a sacrifice to take away the sins of many people. He will come again, not to deal with our sins, but to bring salvation to all who are eagerly waiting for him.
Ephesians 2:8-10 says For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-- and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God--not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. ------ We can't claim that we will get to go to heaven because we are "good people", it doesn't work that way. Romans 3:23 says that for ALL have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. We need a savior. None of us are good enough to get into heaven on our own merits, we need the grace and salvation from Christ.
John 5:24 says "I tell you the truth, whoever hears my work and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life." ----- If we don't accept Jesus Christ as the son of God, sent to save us from our sins, we are destined for death for all eternity. But we get life by accepting him.
This is a matter for life and death, forever. Once we're gone, there is no changing our decision to then accept Christ. We have to make this decision while we are living. I truly urge you, if you don't know where you will live forever after you pass from this earthly life, you need to seek out the truth now. No one is guaranteed tomorrow, so don't wait. Call me, email me, seek out a trusted friend, read the book of John in the Bible, to start (if you don't have a bible, you can find this online) do something, anything to know 100% what will happen to you when you die.
I can't imagine not living with Christ in my life. It's this relationship that is above all relationships, it's a deeper love than any human person can give you. It's hope, love, joy, peace, comfort like you'll never experience anywhere else. Don't wait and don't live life in anxiety, uncertainty, insecurity, helpless. There is hope. There is life, forever. Seek answers please. Your life depends on it.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

I'm not Sorry

Yesterday I was waiting in the eye doctor's office and there was an older couple sitting across the room, waiting also. It was such a warm day, and being the Californian that I am, I HAD to wear my sandals ;)

The wife said quietly (but I could still hear her talking) to her husband, do you see the puzzle piece tattoo on her foot? He kinda just nodded and said "Hmmmm....". A few minutes later, he asked me what the story was behind my tattoo. I told him that puzzle pieces are the national symbol for Autism and that both my children are on the Autism Spectrum. He sorrowfully said, "Oh, I'm so sorry." I quickly replied with a, "I'm not sorry." I went on to explain how wonderfully blessed we are to have such special, unique little boys. That I get to experience things and see things that other parents don't get to. I said that it we are so blessed and thankful for our boys and God didn't make any mistakes.

I light up when I talk or think about my boys. A joy comes over my heart that I can't express and immediately results in a smile, so I'm pretty sure that I didn't come off as upset or angry as I explained how grateful I am for my sweet little guys. But it's true: I'm not sorry for any of their circumstances. They are 100% perfectly created. PERIOD. There is nothing to be sorry about. We absolutely have our struggles and challenges; but that has only made us stronger as individuals, parents and a family. And let's face it, what parent doesn't face a struggle with any child, special needs or not?

I got to tell this couple that I am so happy that I have kids with Autism. They challenge me to view things in a way that I never have before. I also got the wonderful privilege of telling them a little bit more about Autism, because they admitted they knew very little about it. Getting to spread Autism awareness is such a big deal for me, and I was so happy that 2 more people knew just a little bit more about it thanks to Christian and Daniel. :) And come to find out, they asked about the puzzle piece, just because they both really loved puzzles, so they thought it was interesting that I had puzzle pieces tattooed on my foot. :)

Psalm 139:13-14- For you formed my inward parts;You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous works are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.

I love you boys more than I could ever put into words. I love every quirk, every challenge, every victory, everything. YOU ARE wonderfully made. :)